BUILDING A LIFE WITH GOD
Hieroschemamonk Seraphim of Holy Mountain, Karoulia
(+1981).
Aman can live with God—or without God, as some people
do. It is possible to live with God by reason of His good pleasure for man to
do so, and also by reason of a man’s own positive inclination. Here, the
circumstances of the man’s life appear either favorable or unfavorable; i.e.,
it becomes evident that what is essential is not outward circumstances, but the
person’s own predilection, his desire, his intent.
In order to live with God, to make this a reality, one
must leave space for Him in one’s daily activities—give Him room. The desire to
live with God must be joined in the heart by the remembrance of God. A person
is free to choose, according to his desire or lack of it, whether or not to
incorporate the remembrance of God into his life. From this point, this
choosing, the two paths increasingly diverge. One man desires it, another does
not give it a thought; he does not seek it. It may be that outwardly they live
side by side, i.e., in similar circumstances, similar surroundings; but one
lives with God, the other without God.
Thus, the first thing is desire.
Next in order of importance is the extent to which a
person is caught up in his external affairs, to what extent he is enslaved by
them, how important and urgent he considers them; for example the extent to
which his work superior make demands of him: “Finish this,” and, “Have it done
by...” Perhaps he also has certain career needs or chooses ones requiring his
attention. Whatever the case, it means being caught up in outward activities;
this greatly hinders remembrance of God. And without remembrance of God, how is
it possible to live with God? One must set a goal for oneself: to battle for
liberation [from this enslavement] in order to maintain within oneself the
remembrance of God—no matter what! This is a task which is both lawful for man,
right before God, and possible within the conditions of man’s earthly life. Try
it and see yourself. The obstacles to this goal are only apparent and
imaginary.
It is true, the beginning is difficult. But this is
only because we are not accustomed to it and not because the remembrance of God
actually disturbs whatever it is we are doing; not at all. He who so desires
and looks into this matter will find the possibility of attaining it within
himself.
This will both amaze him and convince him that remembrance of God is
of great help in all his endeavors. It even makes him more peaceful and more
successful in his undertakings. Life becomes more enjoyable; he is happier.
Here calls the words of the Psalmist: Those who remember God shall rejoice.
(Pss 20:5).
Once the soul’s enslavement by outward affairs
weakens, it becomes possible to “make room” for God in the midst of these
affairs and thereby to live with Him. Man’s life is occupied by human affairs,
but if among them a place can be found for God, there, too, is life with God.
But how, practically speaking, is this accomplished?
Remembrance of God is only the beginning. Next there
are the feelings of the heart. These are the very life of a man. Think about
it. Throughout a man’s life, in all he does, his feelings (such a diversity)
move in him; they live, change, ac-company his every action, share in every
part of his outward life. Pleasure, displeasure, irritation, joy, distress,
jealousy,
striving towards or repulsion from something—these inner
feelings accompany all the outward activities, his whole life. They exist. They
are not imagined!
Among these feelings are those which are akin to the
remembrance of God, conducive to it: fear of God, faith, piety, and gratitude
towards God (how patient He is with us great sinners, He even showers gifts
upon us!), love for Him, hope and trust in Him, a readiness to entrust oneself
to His care (He is good, mercifully kind, even like a tenderhearted mother: Can
a woman forget her sucking child... ? Yea, they may forget, yet will I not
forget thee (Isa 49:15). These and similar feelings must be found in the heart,
singled out from among other feelings, and nurtured. With their help the
desired aim can truly be achieved—to live with God!
Together with remembrance of God, one must join these
feelings, these good inclinations to one’s actions, i.e., to one’s outward
activities which, like some kind of bubbles or vessels, can be filled (and they
do indeed fill up) with these or other feelings from the heart. In remembering
God while you work, concentrate also on those feelings which are akin to the
remembrance of God. These feelings will be with you as you go about fulfilling
your earthly tasks. Here already you have the beginning of your life with God.
For this is just what it is!
The Lord desires to be with man: My delights were with
the sons of men (Prov 8:31), and they shall be My people and I
will be their God (Jer 31:33), and as the bridegroom
rejoiceth over the bride, so shall thy God rejoice over thee. (Isa 62:5). Here
is the basis of our hope to live with God. It remains for man to cooperate with
this will of God. In his fallen state (and the Lord knows this; He takes it
into account, humanly speaking) man can cooperate through remembrance of God,
through his feelings towards Him—even though these are weak and confused. What
is most important here is desire, and effort (both rest on faith). The Lord
will fulfill and strengthen whatever else is necessary. Therefore, begin with
confidence!
“Enslavement” comes from the influence of the external
world upon a man. You must resist it. What is necessary is necessary, but these
externals must never be allowed ro control the heart. One can do what is
necessary and the heart can be either at liberty or in bondage. Keep your heart
at liberty, because a free heart can remember God and give attention to God
even as you attend to your tasks. This opens up the possibility to live with
God—and gives it a beginning.
The balance can shift: [spiritual] vigilance and a
desire to be with God can become strong enough to outweigh the soul’s
enslavement to mundane, outward activities. The activities themselves are not
eliminated; they remain, but their power over the soul weakens altogether. A shift
occurs in the inner life which attends the outward actions. Previously the
latter fully occupied the person’s attention, while the inner life passed
unnoticed; the person gave it no heed (how it was sustained was quite unknown—
“by itself,” like abandoned children left to grow up by themselves.) But when
the power of the external world over the man is weakened, there is a shifting
of positions: external things become unimportant to the soul; they lose their
former significance, while the inner life draws all the attention to itself and
acquires preeminence. This allows for the very real possibility to live with
God, when the thoughts and feelings of the heart are with Him.
In such a case one shouldn’t race about or overly
focus upon one’s affairs, nor be overly concerned about them— all this is only
a hindrance. It obstructs the effort to “live with God” while one is about
one’s business. Previously the “doing” was everything, and the inner life was,
by contrast, some kind of fog which was ignored; all attention focused upon the
“doing.” But now these things, these activities, are but a covering, a covering
beneath which is carried on the principal activity which is, in essence, life
with God. This is a source of joy, happiness, light—here we can now say: shining
upon the world as the light of knowledge (from the Nativity Troparion).
It appears, then, that without outward activity it is
more difficult to “live with God”; there’s nothing to secure the attention, and
feelings towards
Him easily dissipate (after all, they are weak in the beginner, just as his
attention is scattered). Without outward activity a person is left like a plant
pulled from the ground—its roots have no firm support, nor do they absorb
strengthening juices. So, too, without any outward activity a person’s inner
life weakens, and he loses the possibility of life with God.
The Lord established human life. Take heed! God gave
men earthly cares so that they would not fall into something worse. “Vanities”
are earthly activities undertaken without God, but they are preferable to the
actions of irrational and destructive passions and sins to which fallen man is
so prone. And if these “vanities,” i.e., these earthly, human affairs, are
undertaken with the thought of God, with the aim of salvation, they become a
pathway leading to Heaven.
ORTHODOX HERITAGE VOL 13, ISSUE 07/08 2015
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