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Our
deeper spiritual life begins when our soul begins to long for God and assert
itself in our conscience. When this happens it leads us to change our way life.
Elder Aimilianos says,
When it is, then, that a soul says: “l must live a
Christian life, I must live differently”?
When it acquires the sense that it is a soul in exile;
when it realizes that it is something that has been cast away, and now exists
outside of its proper place, outside of Paradise, in a foreign land, beyond the
borders within which it was made to dwell.
To begin to think about changing our way of life, to live
according to the ten points of an Orthodox Way of Life, we must begin to
acquire the feeling that we are separated from God. This is a feeling where we
sense there exists some invisible barrier between us and God.
Spiritual life does not begin from any kind of
intellectual analysis. On the contrary such efforts may only increase the size
of the barrier.
Elder Aimilianos says,
The Spiritual life, you see, begins with a kind of
vision, with the feeling of banishment, and this is not arrived at by means of
any intellectual analysis or evaluation. I simply feel within myself the
presence of a wall, a barrier, and I don’t know what’s beyond it.
This is a feeling that there is an insurmountable
obstacle that we must overcome, that there is a “dividing wall” (Eph2.14)
between us and God. We realize how distant we are from God. We begin to
understand that He is Spirit but we ourselves are only flesh. We realize that
we don’t really have any conversation with God, but only talk at Him, often
only out of obligation.
As this feeling of separation, of being in exile,
develops, we begin to seek God in earnest. First must come this feeling of
being separated from God.
Elder Aimilianos says,
But if the soul doesn’t have this feeling, it can’t even
begin to embark upon a spiritual life. It may live a Christian life, but only
in a manner of speaking, only in appearance, only on an intellectual level,
only within the limits of its own conceptions.
This feeling of separation provides the proper motivation
to participate in divine services, personal prayer and ascetic practices
voluntarily without the sense of obligation or “l must.” The soul will move us
forward based on a divine vision, one where we begin to see our fallen nature
and realize we belong in paradise.
The beginning is not a fear of condemnation to a burning
fire in hell, but a desire to be united with a loving God. This feeling of
separation leads us to try to understand why we are separated and the desire to
seek the help of the Holy Spirit to unite us with Him.
Reference: The Way of the Spirit, Archimandrite
Aimilianos, pp 2-6
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