Our
deeper spiritual life begins when our soul begins to long for God and assert itself
in our conscience. When this happens it leads us to change our way life.
Elder
Aimilianos says,
When
it is, then, that a soul says: “l must live a Christian life, I must live
differently”?
When
it acquires the sense that it is a soul in exile; when it realizes that it is
something that has been cast away, and now exists outside of its proper place,
outside of Paradise, in a foreign land, beyond the borders within which it was
made to dwell.
To
begin to think about changing our way of life, to live according to the ten
points of an Orthodox Way of Life, we must begin to acquire the feeling that we
are separated from God. This is a feeling where we sense there exists some
invisible barrier between us and God.
Spiritual
life does not begin from any kind of intellectual analysis. On the contrary
such efforts may only increase the size of the barrier.
Elder
Aimilianos says,
The
Spiritual life, you see, begins with a kind of vision, with the feeling of
banishment, and this is not arrived at by means of any intellectual analysis or
evaluation. I simply feel within myself the presence of a wall, a barrier, and
I don’t know what’s beyond it.
This
is a feeling that there is an insurmountable obstacle that we must overcome,
that there is a “dividing wall” (Eph2.14) between us and God. We realize how
distant we are from God. We begin to understand that He is Spirit but we
ourselves are only flesh. We realize that we don’t really have any conversation
with God, but only talk at Him, often only out of obligation.
As
this feeling of separation, of being in exile, develops, we begin to seek God
in earnest. First must come this feeling of being separated from God.
Elder
Aimilianos says,
But
if the soul doesn’t have this feeling, it can’t even begin to embark upon a
spiritual life. It may live a Christian life, but only in a manner of speaking,
only in appearance, only on an intellectual level, only within the limits of
its own conceptions.
This
feeling of separation provides the proper motivation to participate in divine
services, personal prayer and ascetic practices voluntarily without the sense
of obligation or “l must.” The soul will move us forward based on a divine
vision, one where we begin to see our fallen nature and realize we belong in
paradise.
The
beginning is not a fear of condemnation to a burning fire in hell, but a desire
to be united with a loving God. This feeling of separation leads us to try to
understand why we are separated and the desire to seek the help of the Holy
Spirit to unite us with Him.
Ten
points for an Orthodox Way of Life
Reference:
The Way of the Spirit, Archimandrite Aimilianos, pp 2-6
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